“I Want To Live…” Video of UP BLO Goes Viral Before Tragic Suicide

A day after a 46-year-old assistant teacher serving as a Booth Level Officer (BLO) was discovered dead in his home in Uttar Pradesh's Moradabad, a video believed to capture his final words has come to light.

Sarvesh Kumar, who had been struggling to finish work linked to the Special Intensive Revision of voter lists, recorded a message for his family before his death.

Final Video Reveals Plea for Forgiveness

In the video, Kumar speaks of not being able to live up to the demands of the assignment and asks his family to forgive him. He tells his sister, "Didi, please forgive me," and requests his mother to take care of his children. He says he could not complete the election related work and that he is choosing to take this step on his own. He stresses that nobody else is responsible.

He explains that he had not been able to sleep for nearly twenty days and that the pressure had pushed him to a point where he felt he had no space left. He mentions that he has four young daughters and asks his family to forgive him as he feels he is leaving their world behind. He also says he wished to live but the burden had become unbearable.

BLO Assignment Was New for Him

Kumar, an assistant teacher at a government school, had been assigned BLO responsibilities for the first time on October 7. This role requires going door to door to collect voter information and verify documents. His wife, Babli, found him dead early Sunday morning. A note recovered from the spot stated that he had been unable to cope with the stress that came with the BLO duty.

Growing Concerns Over BLO Working Conditions

His death adds to rising concerns across the country as the Election Commission conducts the Special Intensive Revision exercise in multiple states. Several BLOs have died since the work began, and many families have attributed the deaths to excessive work pressure. BLOs explained that they often work fourteen to fifteen hours a day while receiving very low compensation. They also highlighted the constant fear of disciplinary action if they fail to meet the deadline.

Family Seeks Action, Cites Pressure from Officials

Kumar belonged to the Dalit community and lived with his family in Bahedi village in Moradabad's Bhojpur area. His relatives have demanded strong action against senior officials, claiming the pressure of the assignment pushed him toward this extreme step.