Indore, Apr 18 (UNI) The flamboyant opener scored a fifty in his debut and was part of the 1999 World Cup squad but Amay Khurasia still gropes for an explanation why he was not fielded in any of the matches in England. The old wound still bleeds, says the Madhya Pradesh batsman, even though he goes on and on for his state team.
''I was in good nick and still I ended up being a mere 'passenger' who was not allowed to play a single match. It was very, very disappointing. I went straight to the captain (Mohammad Azharuddin) and asked why I was being left out but didn't get any explanation,'' Khurasia told UNI with a dejected look.
''Our batsmen were not doing well, we were losing our matches but still I did not get a look-in. I didn't get a straight answer from anyone and frankly speaking, I don't have great memories of the World Cup,'' added the player who played 12 ODIs for India.
Khurasia also laments that he did not get enough chances for a comeback and was dropped from the side.
''I was given just two matches for a comeback and it was just not enough. Sourav Ganguly, when he was made the captain, proposed my name. He wanted me in the side but could not have his way. I had the trust of my captain and still I was not given a chance.'' ''However, I am not complaining. I'm a positive thinker and can't live in the past. That's history now and I'm looking forward,'' he said.
Khurasia is aware that there is no realistic chance of making a comeback in Team India, but the Madhya Pradesh stalwart believes he has enough fire in his belly to continue for the state team.
''I know it's almost impossible to make a comeback. I'm not growing younger and I feel better players are playing in the Indian team. But then you never know. Anyway, I'm enjoying my game for the state. I have served Madhya Pradesh for 15-16 years and will continue as long as possible.'' ''I want to guide the team to the Elite Group and that keeps me going,'' he added.
An out and out team man, Khurasia rates his appearance in the Commonwealth Games as the best moment of his career, even though he fainted during one of the matches there.
''I scored a fifty in my debut but it was simply a great feeling in the Commonwealth Games, representing India,'' he reminisced.
The left-hander was also critical of the way Ganguly has been dropped from the side.
''Sourav is the best captain we had and one of the best players as well. He was humiliated despite his commitment and contribution to the Indian cricket,'' Khurasia said.
''He has 16,000 runs in international cricket under his belt and people asked him to prove his form in domestic cricket! You can just see whether he is fit enough or not and that's it.'' He, however, felt that Ganguly's chances of a comeback are rather slim because ''cricket is not the criterion for Sourav's selection,'' he said.
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