London, June 5 (ANI): Nadya Suleman, mother of six who later had octuplets through in vitro fertilization, admits that she lives in denial because "I screwed up my life, I screwed up my kids' lives."
In a video posted on radaronline, the history making mum said she had made mistakes and bad decisions.
"I screwed myself. I screwed up my life, I screwed up my kids' lives," she said.
"I have to put on this strong facade and I have to pretend like I don't regret it," she added.hile in the video, Suleman says she didn't inform her sperm donor that she was having more children after the first six, and fears his resentment for the treachery.
In the video shot in a fondue restaurant, Suleman says she used frozen fertilised embryos left over from her first conceptions to become pregnant with eight additional children.
The donor didn't know she had the leftover embryos, she said.
The camerawoman, identified by the site as Suleman's best friend, says at one point that the sperm donor has a wife and family.
Suleman also aired her worries regarding her older children's curiosity about their biological father's identity.
She refuses to identify him, saying she wants to protect his privacy, but also wants him "to somehow, privately, secretly know (the children) in a controlled manner." (ANI)