New York, Oct 8 : American actress Jennifer Lopez once talked bout the nervous breakdown she went through during an interview, but it was never published.
The interview, which took place between new mum Lopez and Kevin Sessums at the Long Island estate she shares with husband Marc Anthony, had originally been done for a major fashion magazine.
Lopez, 39, had requested the magazine not to publish the interview because she regretted some of the comments she had made.
However, the story, as told by Sessums, has finally come to light.
"I don't get nervous. I don't get depressed. Blah, blah, blah...There was a time when I was very overworked and I was doing music and movies and so many things. I was suffering from a lack of sleep. And I did have a kind of nervous breakdown," the Daily Beast quoted her as saying.
"I froze up on a set. Well, not on a set, but in my trailer. I was like, 'I don't want to move. I don't want to talk. I don't want to do anything.' It was on that movie Enough [in 2002]. Yeah. I did. I had a nervous breakdown.
"There were no signs leading up to it. You really don't know what's happening at first. I was going, 'What's going on?' It was about five in the afternoon in my trailer and I just sat there. I remember telling my assistant at the time, Arlene, to go get the director, Michael Apted, and I asked if I could go home because I was feeling so sick and weird.
"I kept saying, 'I'm not weak. I'm not weak.' It's funny what tricks your mind plays on you. I just didn't want people to think I was falling apart. But when I look back on it now it's so odd to me that those are the words I chose to say: 'I AM NOT WEAK.'
"Michael let me off and when he left I just sat there and started crying and felt frozen. I didn't want to move.
"My bodyguard, who had been with me for many years, picked me up and put me in the car and they took me to a doctor...
"Right away they want to give you pills. But I have never liked the idea of pills and kept saying no to that and just kept asking what was wrong with me.
"'I'll tell you what's wrong,' the doctor said. 'You're sleep deprived. You're overworked. Go home and go to bed.' He told me to go back to work on Monday after a weekend of sleeping because if I waited longer that I would only get more panicked about working.
"So that's what I did. I've still never been to a shrink. I'm not a shrinky person," she added.