Washington, Sept 18 : Hollywood star Alec Baldwin has revealed that he felt like killing himself after an answer machine message in which he had called his daughter a "thoughtless little pig" was leaked on the Internet.
In his autobiography 'A Promise To Ourselves: Fatherhood, Divorce and Family Law', Baldwin revealed that the incident had led to him taking his own life.
He also blasted website TMZ.com for publishing the tape last year (07).
"She (Ireland) was off for spring break with her mother and her phone was turned off for 10 consecutive days... This had gone on for years now and... when the beep came, I snapped. (TMZ boss Harvey Levin) seemed to be that breed of tabloid creature that realized an almost sexual level of pleasure from ruining other people's lives," Contactmusic quoted him as writing.
"He has created TMZ as the updated receptacle of... trash. He leads a cadre of self-satisfied twentysomethings who jump like rats from public relations sinking ship to sinking ship," he added.
The 50-year-old actor said that the thought of jumping out the window remained with him night for weeks.
"Driving up the Taconic Parkway, heading to an inn in the Berkshire Mountains, I began to think about what little town I would repair to in order to commit suicide.
"What semi-remote Massachusetts state park could I hike deep into and overdose there? When I returned to New York, the thought of jumping out the window of my apartment was with me every night for weeks," he added.