London, Sept 15 : Cancer-struck Jade Goody has revealed that her disease has crushed her dreams of one day having a baby girl.
The former Big Brother star, who lost her womb to the disease, said that one of the biggest upsets in her cancer battle is facing up to the fact she will never have a daughter.
"I've always wanted a little girl, but it's not going happen so I've just got to get my head round that," the Sun quoted her, as saying.
"But it's hard. The other day at one of my friends, it was her little girl's birthday and there were loads of kids there and little babies there.
"I could just hear people in the background having conversations about the first nappy change and it got me and I had to go upstairs.
"I was just like, 'Get out of the room and leave me on my own otherwise you're going to make me worse' - and she was like, 'Let me help you'." he added: "There are tough times, but when is there never a tough time in my life?" she added.
Goody also admitted that she had neglected her pals at first and become obsessed with her condition - and the effect it could have on sons Bobby, five, and Freddie, four.
"I did go into my own little shell and stay in on my own and not really talk to anybody and be polite and text people back," she said.
"But then I thought, 'What am I achieving? I'm achieving nothing. I'm ill - so what?' "If I keep saying, 'I'm ill and going to feel worse and worse and worse' it's going to show in my children.
"So I've let that all go and I'm making a bit more of a go of it," she added.